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the results we're out and I really can already feel the dissapointment in my parents eyes. I care about my results okay . But I really don't know how to sit down there and study . and my parents are not gonna be satisfied . I don't expect them to be either . on the net or in reality , I really don't know where to run? in reality , I try so hard to make my life easier . I'm a VERY patient girl . I accept people's flaw full heartedly and acknowledge it . so basicly , I'm ready when they do something I dun like . But still , however fully prepared am I . people won't just make it easier for me . and now I'm very tired . Tired of everyone . In the net , opening msn used to be my excape for reality . and now , everything is different . It makes my head ache . I don't want to keep hearing sorry . I don't want to care . I'm fed up . I don't want to keep going with your mood swing . and I don't want to talk to you . and ...I guess I just can't help it . I just want to spend some time with you . I want to talk to you alone . and yet , you we're talkin with so many other girls too . I wonder if you do the same thing too the rest too . I know that you could be really doing that right now . and I know I really should stay away from you , but you are always on my dreams and you're taking over my mind . I really don't know wat to do right now . you're not that guy I met anymore . you don't talk alot with me anymore . I'm the one who always have to start talkin , making topic . I guess I'm the only one who wants to talk . and you're properly just annoyed ... I keep telling myself that the reason I want to talk to you is because I want to keep our friendship but I guess thats preety old excuse. right?? I really don't know wat to do now .