hi cs2 , chen shin , most recently donald duck
how are u ahh?? since u lk not at home this afternoon , I've decided to mail you . I was actually reading midnight sun (a book) on the net when u called . a couple of days ago . the day where I was declaring to everyone that I was busy . your call was unexpected , because I've givin up calling you throughtout the holidays . You sound down , and after putting down the phone , i went back to the comp , continue reading . I could'nt concentrate , while Edward (the character , damn freaking hot , better than your ian ) is getting to know what is love , i started wondering , are u going through another break up . with a guy I haven't met or heard before , due to my temporary absence is your life . and damn , 11 o'clock seems to far ahead .
I had alot of things to report to you , to tell you , and I want to hear your complains . I'm weird right? complain oso like to hear , but I guess it's a habit I've taken up since I met you . When I finnaly made concrite good friends , and mark my mark at seafield , I didn't know u were still there . I guess when drama takes over your life , it'll be a burden to heavy to carry . And when u thought its time to out it down , it left a mark on your shoulders and its too ugly that to hide it , you take it up again . Now , you can't put it down nor u can carry it any further . But I totaly selute you , you lasted that long . I've hardly lasted a year , and it was so heavy for me that it sunk me into depression . I was carefull to hide it , and until now , I wonder if you've realise...
I guess when it comes to life advices , you should be the pro , but I wonder if you've known this already . Life taught me this , when I was still at 13 . There are people we meet in life , people that comes and go , people that hardly left an image in you , people that step into you life and left a deep foot print on you . These are the people we fear or love , they come so unexpectedly and left without a trace . Their after effects is so hard to bear , u didn't know what to feel . These people are in a way , not meant to be forgotten , but remembered . They were sent to teach u a lesson , to help you in the future . And if you find a way to forget them , then they are not leaving their print deep enough and not doing a good job .
That single person that didn't help me in my depression but made it even worse , is our dear EX-BFF cat . She might not make you remember her that much , but she did a good job towards me . Her absurb judging in people and determination to prove perfect is impossible wrong and her pride to high its taller than her . She was willing to kick whoever , and whatever if it was affecting her goals and dream , and most importantly her pride . She was willing to do anything , and it didn't matter if that person was her best friend , to her , its just something to do to get what she wanted . I've forgiven her , how could I not?? When she left us , she took a part of me , a part that was eating me . she took my depression away . Instead of feeling worse , I felt better , VERY much better . And now when I think of her , all I could think of was our good times and how gratefull am I for her .
But in your case , I guess Jeff took the wrong part from you . You weren't as lucky as me . I wish I could help u retrive it back , but I guess its outside of my means . But I believe you'll get throught it . And if no one backs you up , you'll know that you would always have my back . If you get lost and is brainstorming the direction to go , you know I'll brain strom with you . When u want to laugh , u know I would always laugh with you . If you want to think about a good memory , I hope mine will be qualified. If you can give your all for a guy , I hope u can do the same to move on . And when u come out of it , I'm sure you'll be the tougest person alive . You know I'll always love you , and I hope you'll find the missing peace . If Jesus manage to find you back to his arms , I'm sure you'll find it soon . Welcome back to the church , I might not be that fortunate to feel the unbreakeble comfort you find , but I hope you do .
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y-iLk1jbNpE
MOVE ON!!!
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