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I'm sorry I did mention that I will try not to 'abuse' my blog by venting negative feeling about it but I had to. And I'm terribly sorry. FIRST UP!


SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!

I seriously think I have some MAJOR issues with my sister. Seriously, my parents they didn't really gave us any specifications on growing up, they just pretty much gave us the usual like be nice. family is rock, you gotta love them because you're stuck and stuff.

well they didn't really put it that way but after 17 years that's pretty much how it got stuck in my head. Growing up with my siblings, honestly, the way I was brought up, I think there was more days where i DREAD the ending of school. It wasn't because I was mega popular or something its just that I just didn't want to go home. Since young, my siblings and I we grew up together. But that didn't mean we were super close or anything. sure, we look alike but the four of us?? We are completely different person. But it was bearable.

I guess all of it started when each of us hit puberty. My brother started to realize that the world evolves around him and if anyone wants his recognition, they have to prove it. Including my mother, then he started to not rebel but act like a complete JERK with no boundary. But I guess since young, my brother never really mean that much to me. He was always at the bottom of my 'family members i love most ' list. I guess he could've been on top if he treated me a little nicer. Anyway, as much as he's not exactly my favorite person, it still hurts to see when the computer is tearing the little good in him down.

When anyone at all yell at me, scold me, insult me, I have a pretty thick skin. I got it from where i come from, I don't put it to heart. I know it sounds cliche to those who spend majority of their time in front of E! news, but I think that's an important lesson to learn. If I had taken every little comments to heart, I swear I'm checking in a psycho ward the next thing you know.

But it's different you know, when those words come from people you care about. Especially people you put your world around. I guess there was a phrase in people's life where you just want to be a better sister and brother that you start telling them things that's happening in school and make your younger sibling feel like YEAH! WOW! MY SISTER IS AWESOME!!!! When the house was smaller and I had to share a room with my sister. I think that was the best days I've ever had. She would curl up in the bed with me and she would talk about her days and I would talk about mine. We would talk about guys in our class that we had a crushes on. If there was anything bothering us we would know. We might not talk much about things that are at the core of our hearts but somehow, we understand the space . And some of the moments where you couldn't open up to anyone, I always know she was there for me to listen. There were scars in our lives that each of us knew about. Little moments where when our parents asked something, there was identical smirk on our faces that said we know something. I was always sure about what you liked and what's happening in your life.

Then I guess you grew up. For the good and the bad. The good part?? Those are the parts without me. The bad parts?? The parts with me. You didn't understand how I felt. It felt like you just left me in a freaking Savannah and you took our horse out of it. Yeah, it felt like betrayal. At first I didn't understand, I wrote you a letter about my feelings and i shove it down your door. I didn't know where it went. I wrote you a poem on a bookmark as a gift and it ended in the trash. I tried to grow up, I try to be like you. All I had in my mind then was, I need to forgive you and catch up with you. Even if I didn't understand why I had to do it, I just knew I had to. And in that process, I lost myself. You weren't there for me. Sure, we talked. But the things we talk about are meaningless. Idols, songs, movies. I wasn't looking forward talking white trash with you, I was hoping something more. But I guess those were just a memory now.

I don't know how you're mind works now, I don't know whats going on with you. I know every materiel things you like now, but that's not important right?? It matters what's on the inside right?? Thats what you taught me. But why did you have to treat me like that?? When have you started to care about everything else but me. All the things I've learn from you, all the points about you that you were proud of. They are all going down the drain. I want to shake you and ask you, but I'm afraid to know the truth. Because in honest truth I think it's just me who think that way . It's just me and not you. We don't know how to say we're sorry anymore. We don't know when to forgive anymore. We don't know when to stop fighting. I've put you at the back of my mind a long time ago, when I gave up trying. I've not cared about you anymore. But why?? Why when you yell at me I will cry?? Why when we fight, I'm the only one crying at the corner. Why do you have to mean so much to me when you don't know me anymore??

I really miss you but now, RIGHT NOW I don't think I want to see you ever again. I just wish you would be a stranger that I smile to because you've seen each other once a year in an event but none of us got the guts to say hello. I just wished you would go and let me have a peace of mind.

But you know what's even more scarier?? Knowing that you would leave if I asked you to leave.












HI AGAIN

no I'm not venting anything now.

that was so 16 minutes ago.

I'm here to show you my new addiction.


UEDA TATSUYA-kun..

he's the reason why i can speak broken japanese now.

He's just so freaking cute la.


AWWWWWWWWWWW!!!

He's from the mega japanese boyband KAT-TUN.

SEE HIM??

He writes and compose his own song. He has his own concert. MOUSE PEACE. last year.


You might ask how the picture above is relevant to what I just said. But trust me. It is relevant.

He didn't act in dramas like the rest of the band did but he was in a stage play. A BIG ONE.


HE was ROMEO. he went ENGLAND. to get in touch with his role.


There are alot of rumours that he is RICH but you don't know......

BTW,

He has four golden retriever.

Owh. below is ueda vid.



his solo. love in snow.



love in snow.


support

ueda tatsuya!!!




ok!!

THIS IS EXCRUCIATING!!

I am sorry that i only blog when I want to vent my feelings.

OK.

SO...

The thing I have problem with that i went blogging is this..


YES! ITS POPULAR BOOKSTORE!!

YES!! I HAVE A PROBLEM WITH IT!!

YES!! YOU HAVE A PROBLEM WITH ME HAVING A PROBLEM WITH POPULAR BOOKSTORE!!

OK.

No. Its not that I bought something cheapo that is not usable there . I have no problem with the product AT ALL!!

in fact..

I LOVE POPULAR BOOKSTORE.

ok, here's the catch.

I went in interview on MONDAY and it went well. I think i ace that interview. Then the guy told me that he will call me to confirm on WEDNESDAY which is TODAY.

It is 3.06 now, why is he not calling me!!!!!!!!!

you know, this is the first time I'm actually waiting for someone to call me. and I actually want to receive their call. I'm actually taking the phone everywhere I go.

BUT WHY ARE THEY NOT CALLING ME??!!

PLEASE!

PLEASE!!

PLEASE!!

PLEASE!!

PLEASE!!

PLEASE!!

CALL ME!!

012-3651122!!!

Incase you've been under a rock... MTV World Stage is making it's debut in malaysia!!! For the first time our country is hosting something awesome. They HAVE to put an age limit...

I AM SO FREAKING PISSED OFF!!!!!!!!!!

It's not like Archie's showcase where I happen to NOT get a ticket. But this time, when I have so MANY sources, THEY HAVE TO PUT AN AGE LIMIT!!!! 

And they open it up to so many other country people. Why they want to reserve for ADULTS. In case you haven't NOTICE. TEENAGERS are YOUNGER than adults , therefore MORE ENERGY to party. Okayy, then you might say, what about other country's people. Their problem lah. You giving away 4 passes right? Ask their gaurdian to come along la!!You know who's coming?? Lemme show you whose coming...

                                                                        Hoobastank

                                                                       Kasabian

                                                                         Pixie Lott

                                                                        Raygun

AND.................CAN YOU BELIEVE IT!!! ANDDDDDD

                                                                       Boys Like Girls!!! 

They are performing all the hit songs incuding the Great Escape and MAYBE Love Drunk. 

                                                                         

 THERES ONE LAST GREAT BAND.

THE AWESOME, INCREDIBLE...

i wanna i wanna i wanna touch you , you wanna touch me tooooo

                                               THE ALL-AMERICAN REJECTS!!!!!!!!!

MTV WORLD STAGE!! HOW CAN YOU DO THIS TO ME??? HOW CAN YOU BE SO BIASED TOWARD TEENAGERS WHEN THEY ARE YOUR LOYAL AUDIENCE ALL THESE YEARS?? 

I WILL GATHER MY ALLIES AND BOYCOTT YOUR CHANNEL UNTIL YOU GET THAT AGE LIMIT DOWN!!!!!

SERIOUSLY!!!!!I FEEL LIKE KILLING MY SISTER HARDCORE YOU KNOW!!!!!!!!

you know the part where i couldn't watch transformer last SUNDAY?? well, I want to make it up to my friends by getting the tickets and watch it with them on FRIDAY. well, I thought everything went well , we made a pact , I'M EVEN WALKING TO SUMMIT TOMORROW TO GET THE TICKETS. we had all the plans made, the transport and stuff then today, out of the blue , she said she don't want to sent me because it's gonna be tiring and the high way from summit is JAM.

OWH COME ON BITCH!!!!

ITS FREAKING 6 OKAY?? SIX?? WTF ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT JAM. AND ITS A FUCKIN HIGH WAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YOU SAID YOU'RE TIRED , OKAYY! I'M CONSIDERATE AND I BAILED ON THEM LAST TIME!

BITCH! JUST BECAUSE YOU CAN'T MAKE IT DOESN'T MEAN YOU HAVE TO MAKE ME CANNOT GO!

I FOLLOWED YOU TO ALL YOUR FRIENDS LUNCH WITH YOU OKAYY?? REMEMBER TERMINATOR SALVATION, I FUNCKIN HELL HAVE NO INTENTION OF GOIN WITH YOU OKAYY?? BUT I FOLLOWED ANYWAY?? YOU KNOW WHY?? BCUZ I FIGURED YOU DESERVE THE BREAK AND I'M GONNA MAKE YOUR LIFE EASIER FOR YOU! SO I SHUT MY FUCKIN MOUTH INSTEAD OF MAKIN A SCENE AND FOLLOW YOU LIKE A PUPPY DOG. SO CAN YOU JUST SHUT YOUR SKANGKKY MOUTH AND LET ME OUT A LITTLE WHILE???

BITCH!

PEEPS, 

Sign the petition for archie to come to malaysia willya. It's just a few clicks not your left arm. PLEASE!!! www.archuletavenue.wordpress.com

VOTE FOR WASTE TIME CHASING CARS in youtube for mr youtube 2009. just search 'WHATTHEBUCK' its in capital, for reals. and click the video 'mr youtube' on the comment section write 'waste tim chasing cars' you can write as many as you want. to vote.

RIP MICHEAL JACKSON. I LOVE YOU

OKAYY PEEPS! I have decided!

In the jonas brothers new album.

Joe Jonas slams back Taylor Swift with a song call 'much better'. Althought earlier when the single 'Paranoid' was realease, E! asked joe if one of the line is about Taylor and he said a down right NO! claiming that the song was the least persoanal in the album. But when 'much better' came out, there's no denying anymore. Here's the line from the song.

Got a rep' for breaking hearts,

I'm done with super star,

All the tears on her guitar,

I'm bitter.

Well, it used to be superstar, but now there were rumours saying he changed the 'superstar' to 'country star'. Guess when he wrote it he didn't really think his NOW girlfriend Camilia was a super star. LOL! So now, everyone was hoping Taylor would slam him back. But new's getting old and I don't think Taylor would want to get herself into it anymore, after all it's over . And it's JUST joe jonas. It's not mcdreamy or hugh jackman, why fret right? Besides she has already slam him back and gave alot of his fans a bad impression of him. And even if Nick and Miley went back together, doesn't mean Taylor have to get back with joe. I doubt if given chance she would . Cuz, if joe would dump Taylor Swift for Camilia then he just don't deserve her. I guess joe never really sat down and get to know Taylor well or else why would he dump her? Taylor is WORTH more than that right? Now, I sorta guess joe dates girl base on looks. 

If both of them break up, I'm serously gonna LAUGH! In case someone need to know what joe let go, look above! 

SUPPORT TAYLOR SWIFT!

CAN ANYONE TELL ME WHEN IS WHITE DAY OR SOMETHING??



Okay, If Santa's around, I hope he reads this, cuz if this is a chrismas pressie, its a damn right cheap one. All I need right this moment, is TRANSPORTATION!




I WANNA WATCH THIS!!

How can this happen to me! After all these time, after all the planning and frustration, and that damn gsc website have to go kaput because of this show and every single human being in Malaysia is dying to be the first to watch this movie, and just when I thought everything is PERFECT! my sis HAVE to tell me NO! my kawan can't make it so I don't want to fetch you, I AM DAMN TIRED! ALL MY DREAM, ALL MY HOPE IS GONE!!!!!!!

AND we planned a surprise to a special someone! ARGH!!!!!!!!!

I AM SOOOO SORRY LAURA JIA-JIA TAN, SORRY i had to ditch you but we shall pray that it turns around!

I am sorry chin soon yong, you had tuition and a surprise in mind and nothing is coming throught

I am sorry life, I tried making you intresting!

I had plans to go summit
to watch the sensational transformers
Megan look hotter
Shia looks buffer
But I had to give up on them'
A love a little to late
I know optimus understand
He was prime
I hope megatron forgives me'
He's coming for revenge
I would run, I would fly
But all i had
was money to watch you
I hope Monday's not too late
But please save some
And give it a shot
For my friends who couln't make it.


I AM SOOOOOOOOOOOO SORRY CS2. I NEVER WISH YOU HAPPY BDAY.SO TO MAKE IT UP TO YOU.....

HAPPY BELATED BDAY!!!!





I have no life..

Sorry haven't been blogging. If you people have not realize..its 2009 already. I know..I'm sorry for ignoring you ppl for such a long time. No promises though...

In case you haven't notice..

17 AGAIN IS OUT!!!!!!

I know , its like last month or something.I've already watch it. It's not aired at the malaysian screens yet!! But I've already watched it in the internet. Zac efron rocks in that movie ppl!!!

Owh yea.. David Archuleta have come and left malaysia . For people who missed it....












I love this picture!!

Now David is at manila..If you haven't heard.. his new album including the unofficial single 'Zero Gravity' which he have been singing in certain showcase only is going to be out on that new album in 3 weeks! cant wait . I'm gonna buy that album.HARDCORE!

I have no life.

Okay I've said it twice already.

Owh..for people who goes to youtube but have nothing to watch there. Check out this dude..Hes hot and talented. He makes rad videos.

His name is 'waste time chasing cars'

I'm like stalking him or something.. Don't worry mac , just kidding.


.........


ehh, chen shin you okayy anot?? just now i called you , you ignored me wei..

OKayy wish me luck on my midterm.

ps: jake in Greece. Muak! Don't say I'm cold blooded ...


Since I've said I'll blog an EXTREMELY long post about some dude..I'll do it!!

OKAYY....

BEWARE....

The unbelievably indescribable ROBERT PATTISON!!!!



Well , he currently carrying the crown for the 'sexiest vampire alive' and I think a lot of people agrees with me a 100% that he deserves it more than......whatever dude that played a role as a vampire before. ^^ (no offense there)

Anyone remember Cedric Diggory??

Yea , he was the harry potter's goblet dude ...one of the four champion . see<< >YAY!!


CEDRIC DIGGORY , YOU'RE SO DAMN HOT!




I'd LOVE to trace his pictures up to the baby era , but then , it would make me look like a phyco . (SHUT UP!!) so instead , I found some REALLY young /fresh/innocent pictures of his earlier days .


ps : he still looks hot in the earlier days , flawless . :x

If you see any bad hair it properly due to his lask of experience...

anyhow , if anyone says he's not hot , they are either blind/retard ...

Now , serously in need of help here . can anyone tell me whats the difference here??

OMG , if I can't tell the difference then I must have lost all my womanly instict..SHIT!






I'm going out at exactly 2 minutes and 45 seconds and amazingly , I'm ready!

While wondering will my top shows off too much skin , I've decided to get back blogging while kishu fidgets on the sofa , occasionally standing up and walking in circles .

opps, times up , he's already whining about leaving . Gosh! If this was a couple months ago , he would've waited a little while more and announced to the room , 'We have to go!' . rather than , 'ehhh . we have to go! or we'll be late....WEI!' See the difference??!!okayy , I have to go , he's going to crack up .

PS:EDWARD CULLEN IS HAWT!
PPS:Sushi anyone??


Paging Mr Adam Ho Xuan/Wei Zi/Jake Doggett(Who wants his surname to be doggett anyway?? its like 'hello , Mr Doggett . ' you might as well call him Mr Doggie . at LEAST its cute...)


After not hearing a word from you for like N months , there was 2 conclusion in my head .

1: I was deleted from your list and ....

2.you're dead .>.<

But I guess you're not dead but your in the sorta 'guilt' mode. But you know what?? I don't know what to belive when it comes to you anymore so I'm sorry to say , I'm not pissed.

When Des came blasting off my laptop's speaker this morning , I froze. Evrything I suspected since the time you told me Ho Xuan was not your name , came true . But with des freaking out , I think her freaking -out tottaly un-freeze me , so there! (thx , des)

Come to think of it , I'm congratulating myself for not saying 'yes' when you ask me *** . Bacause , if I did then I've just dated someone whose a KID . and thats .....EWWWWWWW! But , all those thing you did was sweet! No other guys did that for me . AND , I'm saying this in a ......kawan sorta way . (thats friends in malay)


now that I think back , if all you say was true . Then , the past would be.........I don't want to say it . OMG , I'M CRAZY!!! now , I sorta wish you didn't tell me the thruth .

Okayy , I sorta wish and don't wish . ==ignore me . But american guy or not , I still wish you could tell us face to face , or chatbox to chat box. And I wish you din't lie .

THERE , I SAID IT ALL . and btw , you tottally have to tame des down . and I'm gonna throw this at the back of my head , cuz twilight is coming to town!

GOODBYE , BASTARD . I THOUGHT ADAM WAS CUTE AT ONE TIME ! NOW , I'M GONNA THROW MYSELF AT EDWARD CULLEN OF MAYBE KISHU WOULD DO THE JOB...


Its after PMR and my life has only one word . BORING!!!1

Now I don't know If I want the pre-pmr days or now . gosh . But I do know I'm dreading the form 4 days . No honeymoon year girlfriends . T.T .

My last post was kinna sappy..OKAYY ! It was sappy . Btw , sorry for neglecting the blog for SOME time .

Now the whole world is under the High School Musical fever . I haven't watch it /no one wants to watch with me *sobs due to the fact they thing its lame . .... Okayy , I was also part of the 'HSM is lame group' untill I found out that zac efron got hot over the summer . (Sorry , I have a weakness for hot guys, doesn't matter is hes black or whatever) And I found out he has superb abs...*drools..AND he looks hot on the cover of roling stones . NOW, I'm jelous of venessa...But I can't wait to watch 17 again (his new movie , releasing at 17 april 2009. *crossing my finger this time no one would think it's lame)

I just cut my hair , and it sucks . I look like a freaking lion , as I've already asked them for comdirmation on 'Do my hair look like lion' and majority said yes , so now , I'm having a healthy diet so my freaking hair can grow faster . (I heard it works)

My parents treat me to a japanese dinner on my bday . food was great . I love japanese food . if I don't migrate to USA , I'll defenately go japan in the future . of course , provided I learn japanese up ASAP .

PS . Kishu , thx for wishing me happy bday . the next person born in november is not my mother , but YOUR mother . sorry . You were right , you DID tell me , I just ...forget?? SORRY !!! I hope somehow you remembered . Btw , your mom's bday is today .

PPS . thx for all the pressie and whishes . ADAM , I'm 15 , not 16 . I'm still young!! FOREVER 15 . YEAH!!

PPS . I DID NOT said the same words last year . last year's line was 14 not 15 . so shush...


hahahaha , we talk like we're talking for the last time . before death , before departure . I'va always wondered if we were marely getting old or edgy . Thanks , but I'm not that good as you've give me credit for . Have you wondered , what would we have become if I stayed ?? But I've always knew that we will eventually drift apart , you see , you..belong to another circle . You love the attention , and I..well , i was never made for that circle . It will eventually be a circle of great friends . I do not have that many hearts to give . So all my friends are friends , great ones , ones that I really try to be a good friends to them . Thats how I felt home . But I know that even if we drift apart , when theres just me and you , well be back again , like we never drifted apart before .

If I scold u like i did ALOT of times before for being brainless , I guess its not going help you . But I'm really glad you got smarter . Smoking is bad . But I won't blame your bro edwin , it's true . life is short , might as well live it like there's no tommorow . But knowing you , I could see a future far ahead , and its not death . I guess everyone thought about dyin before . And it usually took alot of senses to see beyond it . 13 really caused me alot of depression , it really bind me to a chain , and tore me apart . it was agonizing . But , I had a diffrent way of dealing it infront of everyone that matter to me . There was no home , no sactuary . You see , since I was young , school was heaven to me , I was young and futile , I took my mothers love as abuse . I guess I should thank my dad for getting me out of there . I didn't regret leaving there , but I do wonder what the hell are you up to . I guess this is more healthy , for me and you . But I guess it wasn't the best . Seafield was like a place for me to patch myself up . When cat just dump me like that , she handed my brain back to me . Last year was really a challenging year . It gave me a fresh start , to think about life , it gave a reason to look forward , to make new pieces of me and sew them back together . I'm sorry I was selfish . But if you look closely , you might see my heart laying somewhere in ruang legar..

I really hope u get over here , have a fresh start and everything , it might help you as it helped me . But I guess thats where u belong . You've really grown up , I can really see that . But don't get tequila or get drunk often . Gratz , you've grown!! and I think I got more childish . Should I blame someone for it??


PS : ask whoever for mt st john black tag ahh . cuz no one my skl received it . threated them wei . maybe that would be something intresting to do...



this is the person i wanted to adress to , but since she distinctly wrote ,'original sikit la , dun copy' I shall put this. dun blame me for not putting your cute pics .

hi cs2 , chen shin , most recently donald duck

how are u ahh?? since u lk not at home this afternoon , I've decided to mail you . I was actually reading midnight sun (a book) on the net when u called . a couple of days ago . the day where I was declaring to everyone that I was busy . your call was unexpected , because I've givin up calling you throughtout the holidays . You sound down , and after putting down the phone , i went back to the comp , continue reading . I could'nt concentrate , while Edward (the character , damn freaking hot , better than your ian ) is getting to know what is love , i started wondering , are u going through another break up . with a guy I haven't met or heard before , due to my temporary absence is your life . and damn , 11 o'clock seems to far ahead .

I had alot of things to report to you , to tell you , and I want to hear your complains . I'm weird right? complain oso like to hear , but I guess it's a habit I've taken up since I met you . When I finnaly made concrite good friends , and mark my mark at seafield , I didn't know u were still there . I guess when drama takes over your life , it'll be a burden to heavy to carry . And when u thought its time to out it down , it left a mark on your shoulders and its too ugly that to hide it , you take it up again . Now , you can't put it down nor u can carry it any further . But I totaly selute you , you lasted that long . I've hardly lasted a year , and it was so heavy for me that it sunk me into depression . I was carefull to hide it , and until now , I wonder if you've realise...

I guess when it comes to life advices , you should be the pro , but I wonder if you've known this already . Life taught me this , when I was still at 13 . There are people we meet in life , people that comes and go , people that hardly left an image in you , people that step into you life and left a deep foot print on you . These are the people we fear or love , they come so unexpectedly and left without a trace . Their after effects is so hard to bear , u didn't know what to feel . These people are in a way , not meant to be forgotten , but remembered . They were sent to teach u a lesson , to help you in the future . And if you find a way to forget them , then they are not leaving their print deep enough and not doing a good job .

That single person that didn't help me in my depression but made it even worse , is our dear EX-BFF cat . She might not make you remember her that much , but she did a good job towards me . Her absurb judging in people and determination to prove perfect is impossible wrong and her pride to high its taller than her . She was willing to kick whoever , and whatever if it was affecting her goals and dream , and most importantly her pride . She was willing to do anything , and it didn't matter if that person was her best friend , to her , its just something to do to get what she wanted . I've forgiven her , how could I not?? When she left us , she took a part of me , a part that was eating me . she took my depression away . Instead of feeling worse , I felt better , VERY much better . And now when I think of her , all I could think of was our good times and how gratefull am I for her .

But in your case , I guess Jeff took the wrong part from you . You weren't as lucky as me . I wish I could help u retrive it back , but I guess its outside of my means . But I believe you'll get throught it . And if no one backs you up , you'll know that you would always have my back . If you get lost and is brainstorming the direction to go , you know I'll brain strom with you . When u want to laugh , u know I would always laugh with you . If you want to think about a good memory , I hope mine will be qualified. If you can give your all for a guy , I hope u can do the same to move on . And when u come out of it , I'm sure you'll be the tougest person alive . You know I'll always love you , and I hope you'll find the missing peace . If Jesus manage to find you back to his arms , I'm sure you'll find it soon . Welcome back to the church , I might not be that fortunate to feel the unbreakeble comfort you find , but I hope you do .

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y-iLk1jbNpE

MOVE ON!!!

ash

I know i basically declared to the world that I WILL POST HAPPY STUFFS but sorry , i don't want to blog about my how i live my day because I don't want to post about what I eat , what I bought , who bitch who, whose 'in' and whose 'not' , and introduce my classroom or get emo over bastards and keep repeating the same line , '___ is not here today , miss him , wish I could hold him , miss him' cuz all those bastards are 'baskets' that are not worth missing over . but now?? all there is here , is study , concentrate on stuffs that EVERYBODY knows I don't enjoy . and why?? I bet a lot of you got an idea of what I might be going over , and no its not a dude , no its not the fame , nor is the money , its the place in the world where i stood that is being replace . I know its sounds selfish of me . but yeah, thats what I'm getting pissed/stressed out about . and it all happened because of a 'basket' . I found a new place , but its in my own world . I keep telling myself I deserve better than that , I'll work hard , and I'll get it and its only in a matter of time , but the matter of time and the working hard seems to be just words that never leveled to action and after effects . so , I've decided to just keep away , bcuz I'm sick of thinking the ' what-if''s' . But why is it so hard , so hard to keep away , why can't i keep my distance , accept  the truth   and get on with life? why do I keep getting myself down , keep pulling myself down , to a place I don't want to be? 


GUY GIRLS.
GRIP UPON YOUR SEATS , CUZ........

Joe cheng and Danson is coming to town!!!!!
and not just any town , SUBANG JAYA , THE SUMMIT
can u believe it??!!!


you know usually its to KL or Genting , but now its at SUMMIT . can u believe it , lols , rite , sure very pact wan . ....... BUT WHO CARES , I AM GOING!!!!!! no one can stop me , hahahahahahaha , those who never go sure regret wan . but hopefully ppl forget about it , cuz i dun want to be squashed in a sardine can and I need to oxy . imagine breathing under the same air with them . okayy , Im being ridiculous , but who cares??? wish i can upload their pics /or sumthin but thanks to my *arherm unbelievable / godly/cunted skill , I do not know how to upload pic , and I lazy use photo bucket . I've actually registered there but me being me have lost my id and pass word. no surprise~~~~


but I really kesian ppl that is forced/parents ntg to do buy/pai seh if nvr buy /wiling wan that is going teh shitty MALAM AMAL . no offence , as much as I feel the skl is OKAY , but 80 for the ticket at a hall is very unreasonable . as much as it saves cost and everything but I think its over charged . it should've been 50 or sumthin if they really wanna earn . but still , according to my ever-talking form teacher , pn chow , they sold like 100k worth of tickets , but 35k is going to the food , but still the PIBG is complaining not enough , these ppl ahh , sangat the greedy u know . My dad always say la , live within your mints. so dun expect so much la.


to miss Ng Nee Cole , u lucky la , can go see beauty and the beast the musical , i oso wanna go okayy , and I dun care if cannto bring camera la , u better take some pics for us .

And go support Elaine's church concert , as much as I cannot go , its this Sat , at their church . admission is free , if your intrested go ask her bah . You can ask me 1st , I'll give you the info la , ashley02_xoxo@hotmail.com.






I AM happy to announced that MY BLOG SKIN PROBLEMO IS OVER!!! *claps hand .
now all of y'all can enjoy my blog without TRYING to ignore the fact that my blog skin is abselutely CACAT . hahahahahahahahaha .

okayy , lets say HAPPY MOVING TO SG TO MR ADAM A.K.A. BATMAN 1202 . I know , but u have to accept it... i know ..batman?? hope u dun die at the heat to sg . although msia is hotter .

cs2 and ALL the other st john ppl who is taking the kadet/adult/re-take kadet/re-take adult this saturday . was wondering if any of u ppl know which skl is holding it . and CS2 U TAKING THE EXAM RITE??!!! u better take lahh , i so long hvn see you d..

Kishu and the rest of baby ilmas. I know , unexpected rite? told you I so good loh for the past 2-3 years . but I'll miss any of u guys , but nvm lahh , we can still talk through the always essable MSN . wont get cut off wan . its just all the ACTION is taken to a SMALL chatbox , i hope we dun TOTTALY pollute the poor thing . and Kishu I'm sorry u have to pull yourself out from your weird..habit..wait a couple of years till your 18 bah ..If cannot w8 then migrate yourself to sg bah . xp.