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I'm sorry I did mention that I will try not to 'abuse' my blog by venting negative feeling about it but I had to. And I'm terribly sorry. FIRST UP!


SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!

I seriously think I have some MAJOR issues with my sister. Seriously, my parents they didn't really gave us any specifications on growing up, they just pretty much gave us the usual like be nice. family is rock, you gotta love them because you're stuck and stuff.

well they didn't really put it that way but after 17 years that's pretty much how it got stuck in my head. Growing up with my siblings, honestly, the way I was brought up, I think there was more days where i DREAD the ending of school. It wasn't because I was mega popular or something its just that I just didn't want to go home. Since young, my siblings and I we grew up together. But that didn't mean we were super close or anything. sure, we look alike but the four of us?? We are completely different person. But it was bearable.

I guess all of it started when each of us hit puberty. My brother started to realize that the world evolves around him and if anyone wants his recognition, they have to prove it. Including my mother, then he started to not rebel but act like a complete JERK with no boundary. But I guess since young, my brother never really mean that much to me. He was always at the bottom of my 'family members i love most ' list. I guess he could've been on top if he treated me a little nicer. Anyway, as much as he's not exactly my favorite person, it still hurts to see when the computer is tearing the little good in him down.

When anyone at all yell at me, scold me, insult me, I have a pretty thick skin. I got it from where i come from, I don't put it to heart. I know it sounds cliche to those who spend majority of their time in front of E! news, but I think that's an important lesson to learn. If I had taken every little comments to heart, I swear I'm checking in a psycho ward the next thing you know.

But it's different you know, when those words come from people you care about. Especially people you put your world around. I guess there was a phrase in people's life where you just want to be a better sister and brother that you start telling them things that's happening in school and make your younger sibling feel like YEAH! WOW! MY SISTER IS AWESOME!!!! When the house was smaller and I had to share a room with my sister. I think that was the best days I've ever had. She would curl up in the bed with me and she would talk about her days and I would talk about mine. We would talk about guys in our class that we had a crushes on. If there was anything bothering us we would know. We might not talk much about things that are at the core of our hearts but somehow, we understand the space . And some of the moments where you couldn't open up to anyone, I always know she was there for me to listen. There were scars in our lives that each of us knew about. Little moments where when our parents asked something, there was identical smirk on our faces that said we know something. I was always sure about what you liked and what's happening in your life.

Then I guess you grew up. For the good and the bad. The good part?? Those are the parts without me. The bad parts?? The parts with me. You didn't understand how I felt. It felt like you just left me in a freaking Savannah and you took our horse out of it. Yeah, it felt like betrayal. At first I didn't understand, I wrote you a letter about my feelings and i shove it down your door. I didn't know where it went. I wrote you a poem on a bookmark as a gift and it ended in the trash. I tried to grow up, I try to be like you. All I had in my mind then was, I need to forgive you and catch up with you. Even if I didn't understand why I had to do it, I just knew I had to. And in that process, I lost myself. You weren't there for me. Sure, we talked. But the things we talk about are meaningless. Idols, songs, movies. I wasn't looking forward talking white trash with you, I was hoping something more. But I guess those were just a memory now.

I don't know how you're mind works now, I don't know whats going on with you. I know every materiel things you like now, but that's not important right?? It matters what's on the inside right?? Thats what you taught me. But why did you have to treat me like that?? When have you started to care about everything else but me. All the things I've learn from you, all the points about you that you were proud of. They are all going down the drain. I want to shake you and ask you, but I'm afraid to know the truth. Because in honest truth I think it's just me who think that way . It's just me and not you. We don't know how to say we're sorry anymore. We don't know when to forgive anymore. We don't know when to stop fighting. I've put you at the back of my mind a long time ago, when I gave up trying. I've not cared about you anymore. But why?? Why when you yell at me I will cry?? Why when we fight, I'm the only one crying at the corner. Why do you have to mean so much to me when you don't know me anymore??

I really miss you but now, RIGHT NOW I don't think I want to see you ever again. I just wish you would be a stranger that I smile to because you've seen each other once a year in an event but none of us got the guts to say hello. I just wished you would go and let me have a peace of mind.

But you know what's even more scarier?? Knowing that you would leave if I asked you to leave.












HI AGAIN

no I'm not venting anything now.

that was so 16 minutes ago.

I'm here to show you my new addiction.


UEDA TATSUYA-kun..

he's the reason why i can speak broken japanese now.

He's just so freaking cute la.


AWWWWWWWWWWW!!!

He's from the mega japanese boyband KAT-TUN.

SEE HIM??

He writes and compose his own song. He has his own concert. MOUSE PEACE. last year.


You might ask how the picture above is relevant to what I just said. But trust me. It is relevant.

He didn't act in dramas like the rest of the band did but he was in a stage play. A BIG ONE.


HE was ROMEO. he went ENGLAND. to get in touch with his role.


There are alot of rumours that he is RICH but you don't know......

BTW,

He has four golden retriever.

Owh. below is ueda vid.



his solo. love in snow.



love in snow.


support

ueda tatsuya!!!




ok!!

THIS IS EXCRUCIATING!!

I am sorry that i only blog when I want to vent my feelings.

OK.

SO...

The thing I have problem with that i went blogging is this..


YES! ITS POPULAR BOOKSTORE!!

YES!! I HAVE A PROBLEM WITH IT!!

YES!! YOU HAVE A PROBLEM WITH ME HAVING A PROBLEM WITH POPULAR BOOKSTORE!!

OK.

No. Its not that I bought something cheapo that is not usable there . I have no problem with the product AT ALL!!

in fact..

I LOVE POPULAR BOOKSTORE.

ok, here's the catch.

I went in interview on MONDAY and it went well. I think i ace that interview. Then the guy told me that he will call me to confirm on WEDNESDAY which is TODAY.

It is 3.06 now, why is he not calling me!!!!!!!!!

you know, this is the first time I'm actually waiting for someone to call me. and I actually want to receive their call. I'm actually taking the phone everywhere I go.

BUT WHY ARE THEY NOT CALLING ME??!!

PLEASE!

PLEASE!!

PLEASE!!

PLEASE!!

PLEASE!!

PLEASE!!

CALL ME!!

012-3651122!!!

Incase you've been under a rock... MTV World Stage is making it's debut in malaysia!!! For the first time our country is hosting something awesome. They HAVE to put an age limit...

I AM SO FREAKING PISSED OFF!!!!!!!!!!

It's not like Archie's showcase where I happen to NOT get a ticket. But this time, when I have so MANY sources, THEY HAVE TO PUT AN AGE LIMIT!!!! 

And they open it up to so many other country people. Why they want to reserve for ADULTS. In case you haven't NOTICE. TEENAGERS are YOUNGER than adults , therefore MORE ENERGY to party. Okayy, then you might say, what about other country's people. Their problem lah. You giving away 4 passes right? Ask their gaurdian to come along la!!You know who's coming?? Lemme show you whose coming...

                                                                        Hoobastank

                                                                       Kasabian

                                                                         Pixie Lott

                                                                        Raygun

AND.................CAN YOU BELIEVE IT!!! ANDDDDDD

                                                                       Boys Like Girls!!! 

They are performing all the hit songs incuding the Great Escape and MAYBE Love Drunk. 

                                                                         

 THERES ONE LAST GREAT BAND.

THE AWESOME, INCREDIBLE...

i wanna i wanna i wanna touch you , you wanna touch me tooooo

                                               THE ALL-AMERICAN REJECTS!!!!!!!!!

MTV WORLD STAGE!! HOW CAN YOU DO THIS TO ME??? HOW CAN YOU BE SO BIASED TOWARD TEENAGERS WHEN THEY ARE YOUR LOYAL AUDIENCE ALL THESE YEARS?? 

I WILL GATHER MY ALLIES AND BOYCOTT YOUR CHANNEL UNTIL YOU GET THAT AGE LIMIT DOWN!!!!!

SERIOUSLY!!!!!I FEEL LIKE KILLING MY SISTER HARDCORE YOU KNOW!!!!!!!!

you know the part where i couldn't watch transformer last SUNDAY?? well, I want to make it up to my friends by getting the tickets and watch it with them on FRIDAY. well, I thought everything went well , we made a pact , I'M EVEN WALKING TO SUMMIT TOMORROW TO GET THE TICKETS. we had all the plans made, the transport and stuff then today, out of the blue , she said she don't want to sent me because it's gonna be tiring and the high way from summit is JAM.

OWH COME ON BITCH!!!!

ITS FREAKING 6 OKAY?? SIX?? WTF ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT JAM. AND ITS A FUCKIN HIGH WAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YOU SAID YOU'RE TIRED , OKAYY! I'M CONSIDERATE AND I BAILED ON THEM LAST TIME!

BITCH! JUST BECAUSE YOU CAN'T MAKE IT DOESN'T MEAN YOU HAVE TO MAKE ME CANNOT GO!

I FOLLOWED YOU TO ALL YOUR FRIENDS LUNCH WITH YOU OKAYY?? REMEMBER TERMINATOR SALVATION, I FUNCKIN HELL HAVE NO INTENTION OF GOIN WITH YOU OKAYY?? BUT I FOLLOWED ANYWAY?? YOU KNOW WHY?? BCUZ I FIGURED YOU DESERVE THE BREAK AND I'M GONNA MAKE YOUR LIFE EASIER FOR YOU! SO I SHUT MY FUCKIN MOUTH INSTEAD OF MAKIN A SCENE AND FOLLOW YOU LIKE A PUPPY DOG. SO CAN YOU JUST SHUT YOUR SKANGKKY MOUTH AND LET ME OUT A LITTLE WHILE???

BITCH!

PEEPS, 

Sign the petition for archie to come to malaysia willya. It's just a few clicks not your left arm. PLEASE!!! www.archuletavenue.wordpress.com

VOTE FOR WASTE TIME CHASING CARS in youtube for mr youtube 2009. just search 'WHATTHEBUCK' its in capital, for reals. and click the video 'mr youtube' on the comment section write 'waste tim chasing cars' you can write as many as you want. to vote.

RIP MICHEAL JACKSON. I LOVE YOU

OKAYY PEEPS! I have decided!

In the jonas brothers new album.

Joe Jonas slams back Taylor Swift with a song call 'much better'. Althought earlier when the single 'Paranoid' was realease, E! asked joe if one of the line is about Taylor and he said a down right NO! claiming that the song was the least persoanal in the album. But when 'much better' came out, there's no denying anymore. Here's the line from the song.

Got a rep' for breaking hearts,

I'm done with super star,

All the tears on her guitar,

I'm bitter.

Well, it used to be superstar, but now there were rumours saying he changed the 'superstar' to 'country star'. Guess when he wrote it he didn't really think his NOW girlfriend Camilia was a super star. LOL! So now, everyone was hoping Taylor would slam him back. But new's getting old and I don't think Taylor would want to get herself into it anymore, after all it's over . And it's JUST joe jonas. It's not mcdreamy or hugh jackman, why fret right? Besides she has already slam him back and gave alot of his fans a bad impression of him. And even if Nick and Miley went back together, doesn't mean Taylor have to get back with joe. I doubt if given chance she would . Cuz, if joe would dump Taylor Swift for Camilia then he just don't deserve her. I guess joe never really sat down and get to know Taylor well or else why would he dump her? Taylor is WORTH more than that right? Now, I sorta guess joe dates girl base on looks. 

If both of them break up, I'm serously gonna LAUGH! In case someone need to know what joe let go, look above! 

SUPPORT TAYLOR SWIFT!

CAN ANYONE TELL ME WHEN IS WHITE DAY OR SOMETHING??



Okay, If Santa's around, I hope he reads this, cuz if this is a chrismas pressie, its a damn right cheap one. All I need right this moment, is TRANSPORTATION!




I WANNA WATCH THIS!!

How can this happen to me! After all these time, after all the planning and frustration, and that damn gsc website have to go kaput because of this show and every single human being in Malaysia is dying to be the first to watch this movie, and just when I thought everything is PERFECT! my sis HAVE to tell me NO! my kawan can't make it so I don't want to fetch you, I AM DAMN TIRED! ALL MY DREAM, ALL MY HOPE IS GONE!!!!!!!

AND we planned a surprise to a special someone! ARGH!!!!!!!!!

I AM SOOOO SORRY LAURA JIA-JIA TAN, SORRY i had to ditch you but we shall pray that it turns around!

I am sorry chin soon yong, you had tuition and a surprise in mind and nothing is coming throught

I am sorry life, I tried making you intresting!

I had plans to go summit
to watch the sensational transformers
Megan look hotter
Shia looks buffer
But I had to give up on them'
A love a little to late
I know optimus understand
He was prime
I hope megatron forgives me'
He's coming for revenge
I would run, I would fly
But all i had
was money to watch you
I hope Monday's not too late
But please save some
And give it a shot
For my friends who couln't make it.