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hahahaha , we talk like we're talking for the last time . before death , before departure . I'va always wondered if we were marely getting old or edgy . Thanks , but I'm not that good as you've give me credit for . Have you wondered , what would we have become if I stayed ?? But I've always knew that we will eventually drift apart , you see , you..belong to another circle . You love the attention , and I..well , i was never made for that circle . It will eventually be a circle of great friends . I do not have that many hearts to give . So all my friends are friends , great ones , ones that I really try to be a good friends to them . Thats how I felt home . But I know that even if we drift apart , when theres just me and you , well be back again , like we never drifted apart before .

If I scold u like i did ALOT of times before for being brainless , I guess its not going help you . But I'm really glad you got smarter . Smoking is bad . But I won't blame your bro edwin , it's true . life is short , might as well live it like there's no tommorow . But knowing you , I could see a future far ahead , and its not death . I guess everyone thought about dyin before . And it usually took alot of senses to see beyond it . 13 really caused me alot of depression , it really bind me to a chain , and tore me apart . it was agonizing . But , I had a diffrent way of dealing it infront of everyone that matter to me . There was no home , no sactuary . You see , since I was young , school was heaven to me , I was young and futile , I took my mothers love as abuse . I guess I should thank my dad for getting me out of there . I didn't regret leaving there , but I do wonder what the hell are you up to . I guess this is more healthy , for me and you . But I guess it wasn't the best . Seafield was like a place for me to patch myself up . When cat just dump me like that , she handed my brain back to me . Last year was really a challenging year . It gave me a fresh start , to think about life , it gave a reason to look forward , to make new pieces of me and sew them back together . I'm sorry I was selfish . But if you look closely , you might see my heart laying somewhere in ruang legar..

I really hope u get over here , have a fresh start and everything , it might help you as it helped me . But I guess thats where u belong . You've really grown up , I can really see that . But don't get tequila or get drunk often . Gratz , you've grown!! and I think I got more childish . Should I blame someone for it??


PS : ask whoever for mt st john black tag ahh . cuz no one my skl received it . threated them wei . maybe that would be something intresting to do...